A day I'll never forget.

December 05, 2012

It has been a hard couple of months. I got home super late the night before so, I really had a hard time getting up. When I finally rose, I did my usual routine. At around 6:30am, right as I finished breakfast, Mom called, "Say goodbye to Daddy." We sat around him, as he lay still, he can't speak anymore. He was coughing, looking at us with tearful eyes. I felt that the inevitable was coming. Mom, Pau and I prayed with him. Mom kept saying that we love him and it was okay to let go. We kept saying the same, too. When we finally finished. I went to my room, and suddenly felt too down to start getting ready for work. I texted that I will be on half-day instead.

After 20 or so minutes, Mom called again. This time, to me in particular. With just the sound of her voice, I knew that Dad was already gone.

The realization hit me as I held his hand. It was cold. It didn't respond. This was the same hand that I held on to as we crossed the street. Every single time. Even as I was already 21 then.

My dad was gone. The pain I felt as his passing dawned on me was unimaginable. I felt everything at once. Disbelief, anger, sadness, regret, and strangely, I felt peace.

The 5th of December of 2012 is a day that I'll never ever forget. My heart hurts every time I think of that day. Here I am, 2 years later, still with tears in my eyes as I type. It's hard to remember the day. What I'd like to do instead is remember the person.

My dad has always been my hero. I don't need anyone to validate that I have always been a Daddy's girl. As I was his only daughter. Every time I get into some trouble, I can always count on him to have my back. I pretty much idolized my dad when I was a little girl. My dad was far from perfect but for his children, he bent backwards.

Excerpt from "The One" by Keira Cass

I got married this year, and as my wedding date came nearer, I remember just being sooooo down. All girls have dreamed of their wedding. Mine was simple, I just wanted my mom and dad to walk me down the aisle. Don't get me wrong, my mom and brother did a splendid job but having Daddy with me is the dream.

Some girls want to be a princess, a star, the center of attention, on their wedding day. I just wanted to be Daddy's little girl for the last time. :) Never knew I would find the exact feeling I felt on my day months back on a book.


I miss my dad. Everyday. I have gone through a roller coaster ride of emotions with regards to his passing. I was filled with anger, sadness, regret, and depression for a time. Acceptance, has come now. I am grateful to have spent almost 22 years with him. I want to celebrate his life rather than mourn his death.

So, to my favorite Daddy, we miss you and you have never left our thoughts. Thank you for the love, the happiness and most especially the life you gave Pau and I. I love you, Daddy. I hope you are proud of the person Pau and I had become. Everything I do is for you, Mom, Pau, Eggy and Gio. :) I know you have Lolo Genio, Lolo Andy, and now, Tito Genny to keep you company till we're finally together again. Always keep an eye on Mom, Pau and Gio.

Sorry for the poor quality of the photo. I just got this off my old Blackberry.

Hello, December.

Sorry for the crappy star. That was made ages ago. Just found one this morning. :)

Hello, December! Wow, time flies by sooooo fast!! I'll be turning 24 in a few days time. And, that isn't what excites me for this month but Gio's first Christmas! (Oh, the joys of motherhood!)

Anyhow, there are lots of things happening on December and I just hope I can write about all that stuff. :)

I'm fast tracking my reading this month (or should I say WEEK) to reach my goal of 25 books for 2014. So far, I finished 22. I hope I can read 5 more. So that I can overshoot my target. (Teehee)

Currently, I'm back to reading Love, Rosie by Cecilia Ahern (I'll be doing a book review on this one very soon! Another first on this blog. Haha). Next on my list is Me Before You by Jojo Moyes. If you guys have book suggestions for me, feel free to give me those! :)

So, that's all FOR NOW.

<3,
Chesca

What are you thankful for? (Thanksgiving Thoughts)

Once the BER months come in, us Filipinos, do our countdown for Christmas. By passing other joyous holidays (in my opinion, Halloween is JOYOUS!). One holiday that Filipinos aren't really into celebrating (but we really should celebrate it) is Thanksgiving.

Okay, for those who've been living under a rock for the passed number of centuries, Thanksgiving Day is a national holiday celebrated primarily in the United States and Canada as a day of giving thanks for the blessing of the harvest and of the preceding year. Several other places around the world observe similar celebrations. It is celebrated on the fourth Thursday of November in the United States and on the second Monday of October in Canada. Thanksgiving has its historical roots in religious and cultural traditions, and has long been celebrated in a secular manner as well.(Thanksgiving definition was from Wikipedia) Modern day Thanksgiving is more focused on being thankful for all the blessings that each has received for the year. This year, the holiday falls on November 27.

So for this post, I would like to take part in celebrating Thanksgiving.

What are you thankful for?

A whole lot of blessings came to me this year. I gained a brand spankin' new husband, a family, and a wonderful beautiful baby boy. With every new thing that came my way this 2014, what I'm most thankful for are the most consistent part of my life, My mom and my brother.

Mom - You have been very supportive and understanding, I can't even properly express how much that means to me. You have been our (Pau and I) strength. Thank you for always being there, for the patience, love, and everything else in between. I love you, Mom.

A letter to my son, Gio

Dear Gio,

It has been 4 months since you were born, and I thank God everyday that you arrived whole, safe, and normal. That was my prayer ever since I found out about your existence: make my baby healthy, normal, and happy. Nothing else mattered.

The 38 weeks that you were in my tummy wasn't the easiest of journeys. I cried, puked, laughed, got mad, got confused, and got scared a lot. Whenever I feel down (I know my hormones were to blame.), I just keep in mind that everything will be worth it once I see (or hear you cry) you for the first time.

We were told to expect a girl. Imagine my surprise when out you came (very loudly, I might add) into the world. But then, I realized, what you are doesn't matter for you are the most perfect being I've ever laid eyes on.

Gio, you make my world (Your Daddy, too.). Having you around makes my heart full with joy. Our kwentuhans, your smiles, laughters, giggles, even your little sobs are treasures to me. You are mommy's little ducky forever and ever.

You had me at your first wail, baby. You'll have me till my last breath.

Love,
Mommy

Blogger for iPad and Android

Oh, the wonders of technology! I downloaded the Blogger app for both iPad and Android so that I get to blog more often. I am soooo excited to start blogging again! Anyway, I'm working on two blog entries that I get to post by this weekend, hopefully. 😊

Make-up Review: Nichido Liquid Eye Liner

This is the first time I'll ever do a review! Oooh.. This is exciting! Anyway, for as long as I can remember, I have been a fan (an enthusiast, really.) of make-up. It started with lip balms, and evolved to brushes (which is a story for another day). 4 years ago, I got interested in trying out eyeliners. More specifically, liquid eyeliners. I have tried cream liners, automatic eyeliner pencils, gel liners, and liquid eyeliners. Mostly, I prefer liquid pen liners. I have been using Maybelline Eye Studio Hypersharp Liner for 3 years. It's easy to use, dries easily and the smudge is very minimal. My current stash of preferred eyeliner is dwindling. So I decided to try out new ones. Hence, the Nichido Liquid Eyeliner.

I bought this liner at Landmark. I was just browsing when I got curious to try out this product. Why, you ask? It just costs P68.00! A definite steal! So, how is it?

It comes with no plastic packaging whatsoever. It doesn't have any details other than its name and the 4 mL indication. It has a thin brush applicator that is flexible enough for you to control easily. The consistency is a bit runny as to be expected from a liquid eye liner.

When you apply it, it gives out a rather greyish opaque color. For a really black color, you have to apply 2-3 coats. It dries easily and with a matte finish. (As seen on the image below). For newbies, the applicator is fairly easy to control. Anyone can use it.

Smudges are kept into a minimal as long as you let it dry for a couple of seconds on your upper lash line first. It's not waterproof, and that is a bit of a risk for users. Wet your hands a little and it comes off. So if you sweat a lot during the day, it might come off. Also, be careful when rubbing your eyes while wearing this liner for it will definetly have a bit of smudging.

Over all, I give this product a 7 out of 10. It's a good buy for its price. Will I restock? Hell yea!

--Chesca

2014 Updates

It has been sooooooo long since I last blogged that this is alien to me already. A lot has happened in over a year since I last wrote. Got engaged, got pregnant, got married, gave birth, in that particular order.

I'll try to give out the details of my wedding (also, how to plan a wedding with a small budget), and try to five beauty reviews and LOTDs (I am sooo not a make-up guru, so please lower your expectations!), and lastly just keep you updated on me and my family's life (I am a new mom, so get ready for baby photos overload!)

So basically, you'll be hearing a whole lot from moi. :) (Since there's an app for blogger on PlayStore.)

Au revoir! :)